today is the day the 'existence' started....
well, i never even hoped to live life this way.
but time runs so fast.. I have not yet achieved those plans i have wished for..
but slightly enjoying every experience i am experiencing every day.
happiness and loneliness, mixed together and came up with a brilliant perception..
I live everything not that seriously..
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Sunday, April 5, 2009
untitled
i don't know how to start this....
this certain moron who i have been anticipating since i was on lower grades. well, i really thought that he will be the one and the only one. maybe i was kinda shocked that time that what was on my mind was all those silly things. hmmmmm?.. but those so-called 'silly things' went on for almost 10 years. can you imagine that?. when i shared this feeling to some persons, almost of their comment was 'how can i keep my feelings that long'?.. (sigh..) does it make any sense to me?. . why would i keep on hoping to this certain moron who i never be friends with?. i don't even know him. bah?..
i closed my window to other dudes because of him. . . . Obssession right?.. whatcha think?.. it is a disorder!!!!!! but the QUESTION is.................. WHY DO I STILL HOPE??? i risked so many things for this. People who i used to consider as a 'family'. . they're gone now... But i didnt regret of loosing them. My dad, Uncle and brothers. (thats true!) nobody knows my whole story yet. my written journals, well, it is inc0mplete and scattered since an intruder came in to my cottage. with the initials J.T.T!!! i really hate her!.. together with R.P.T both of them i have wished to suffer in hell. I dont care if J.T.T doesnt believe in HELL!!. . They are now a part of my past! No matter what will happen! They are gone! totally GONE!.. and No longer EXIST!!!!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........! thngs changed so fast!.. just a blink, and everything has changed! ... i never wanted this, and never planned for this. . . but it is happening already.. and it keeps on happening.. SUCKS!!!!! I wish i can go advance and escape from all of these tragedies. .
Give any adjectives of what you think about me!!.. it is your opinion and you have the freedom!
i can manage.. My emotions often fluctuate. . . Maybe beacuse i have been thinking a lot lately. Stiffed with negative stuffs. . . But WHHHHYYY? do i keep on missing him and always think of him?. . I used not to believe on falling stars but now i am into it. Horoscopes?.. maybe...
but i cant promise to forget everything about this certain MORON... i will set him free if that's what he wants.. but i will always be here for him, no matter how hard to cross to an erupting volcano.. i will still be waiting for him
this certain moron who i have been anticipating since i was on lower grades. well, i really thought that he will be the one and the only one. maybe i was kinda shocked that time that what was on my mind was all those silly things. hmmmmm?.. but those so-called 'silly things' went on for almost 10 years. can you imagine that?. when i shared this feeling to some persons, almost of their comment was 'how can i keep my feelings that long'?.. (sigh..) does it make any sense to me?. . why would i keep on hoping to this certain moron who i never be friends with?. i don't even know him. bah?..
i closed my window to other dudes because of him. . . . Obssession right?.. whatcha think?.. it is a disorder!!!!!! but the QUESTION is.................. WHY DO I STILL HOPE??? i risked so many things for this. People who i used to consider as a 'family'. . they're gone now... But i didnt regret of loosing them. My dad, Uncle and brothers. (thats true!) nobody knows my whole story yet. my written journals, well, it is inc0mplete and scattered since an intruder came in to my cottage. with the initials J.T.T!!! i really hate her!.. together with R.P.T both of them i have wished to suffer in hell. I dont care if J.T.T doesnt believe in HELL!!. . They are now a part of my past! No matter what will happen! They are gone! totally GONE!.. and No longer EXIST!!!!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........! thngs changed so fast!.. just a blink, and everything has changed! ... i never wanted this, and never planned for this. . . but it is happening already.. and it keeps on happening.. SUCKS!!!!! I wish i can go advance and escape from all of these tragedies. .
Give any adjectives of what you think about me!!.. it is your opinion and you have the freedom!
i can manage.. My emotions often fluctuate. . . Maybe beacuse i have been thinking a lot lately. Stiffed with negative stuffs. . . But WHHHHYYY? do i keep on missing him and always think of him?. . I used not to believe on falling stars but now i am into it. Horoscopes?.. maybe...
but i cant promise to forget everything about this certain MORON... i will set him free if that's what he wants.. but i will always be here for him, no matter how hard to cross to an erupting volcano.. i will still be waiting for him
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