my co deejay

beverly laurete or best known by her airname 'DJ BIANCA'
at first, i don't like her that much(knowing she was from ifm) till we gt the chance to go out together on 'hosting events'. and i finally had a chance to know her. . she's the person who taught me about being 'transparent' ..that is the best adjective that describes her personality. . it is such a privilege knowing her. she is one of the good people i have met through magikfm. . well, 'busy type of person' sya.. very workaholic unlike me 'lax' hihihi.. we don't have anything in common. but the good thing is, everything went fine :) everything will go well when we are teamed up.. :)---- gee!! i just love this chick! she's an 'ATE' to me :) go bianx!

TO: Redentor Paurom Tanginan

i ain't regretful of having you as my father. You were the one who helped my mom to give me a chance to experience life on earth. I was born because of your strongest sperm cell who was very determined to reach his goal. Did you really love her?.. well, my mom used to tell me negative things about you and never heard anything but all cautions. some of them were true and some were only my mom's ideas she would like to impart. . . xmpre she had a very bad experience with your relationship. mom were not treated right. Well, guys are all the same. They are just better on the First day.
I used to see my mother crying inside our room because of you. She seems strong and vulgar but she ain't really. You keep on telling me when i was young that someday i would realize that they were all lying about you. someday i would realize that you are nothing but a good father. I can never forget that. Because until now, it is still on my head. I'm trying to prove them wrong but what is happening now, seems like i was wrong how i used to look you up.
At night, before i sleep, i think of you. Thought you think of me. I laughed when i woke up one morning, i remembered my dream the other night how i missed you.
I cant blame you for everything that is happening right now.. Maybe you are not yet fully matured to stand with the right decision. I can understand that. Now we live separate lives. Like a strangers as if we never met. I don't know if you still care about me when you are already happy having jayboy and dynjy and your wife. Perfect family! i hope you will be as good as worst in reverse to us. From now on, I'm forgetting you and will move on. Life will lead me anywhere but to path you and will meet. So long! May you enjoy the life you chose.

existence

today is the day the 'existence' started....
well, i never even hoped to live life this way.
but time runs so fast.. I have not yet achieved those plans i have wished for..
but slightly enjoying every experience i am experiencing every day.
happiness and loneliness, mixed together and came up with a brilliant perception..

I live everything not that seriously..

untitled

i don't know how to start this....
this certain moron who i have been anticipating since i was on lower grades. well, i really thought that he will be the one and the only one. maybe i was kinda shocked that time that what was on my mind was all those silly things. hmmmmm?.. but those so-called 'silly things' went on for almost 10 years. can you imagine that?. when i shared this feeling to some persons, almost of their comment was 'how can i keep my feelings that long'?.. (sigh..) does it make any sense to me?. . why would i keep on hoping to this certain moron who i never be friends with?. i don't even know him. bah?..
i closed my window to other dudes because of him. . . . Obssession right?.. whatcha think?.. it is a disorder!!!!!! but the QUESTION is.................. WHY DO I STILL HOPE??? i risked so many things for this. People who i used to consider as a 'family'. . they're gone now... But i didnt regret of loosing them. My dad, Uncle and brothers. (thats true!) nobody knows my whole story yet. my written journals, well, it is inc0mplete and scattered since an intruder came in to my cottage. with the initials J.T.T!!! i really hate her!.. together with R.P.T both of them i have wished to suffer in hell. I dont care if J.T.T doesnt believe in HELL!!. . They are now a part of my past! No matter what will happen! They are gone! totally GONE!.. and No longer EXIST!!!!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr........! thngs changed so fast!.. just a blink, and everything has changed! ... i never wanted this, and never planned for this. . . but it is happening already.. and it keeps on happening.. SUCKS!!!!! I wish i can go advance and escape from all of these tragedies. .
Give any adjectives of what you think about me!!.. it is your opinion and you have the freedom!
i can manage.. My emotions often fluctuate. . . Maybe beacuse i have been thinking a lot lately. Stiffed with negative stuffs. . . But WHHHHYYY? do i keep on missing him and always think of him?. . I used not to believe on falling stars but now i am into it. Horoscopes?.. maybe...
but i cant promise to forget everything about this certain MORON... i will set him free if that's what he wants.. but i will always be here for him, no matter how hard to cross to an erupting volcano.. i will still be waiting for him

--Sen.Chiz Eascudero

when i had my last minute of adlib of my program the ''PLANET ROCK" ... My boss, sir Philip was there messing up my show. But i was happy when he told me to inform our fellow KABERKZ that sen. chiz will be visiting on our station..
WHOOOHAAATTTT??.. i was really shocked.. i even told my listeners that i was realyl! hmmm?
gee! on that night i wasnt able to sleep well beacuse of the excitement.. wew!!!!!!!
and finally.. i able to talk with my crush! hahaha!
yah! hes cute.. and i like him..

just a thought

You can't let other people's jealousy get you down. If they feel threatened by your success, that is their problem -- not yours. Your job today is to just keep on being smarter and faster. Once you stop caring about what other people are freaking out about, you'll feel a lot freer -- which in turn will help you be even better at what you do! Serve as a good example to others by being honorable and not getting down in the mud with someone full of envy.

Talking to a friend who has been acting out of character

They say that today is a good day to have a serious talk with a friend or loved one who has been acting out of character lately. Casually ask about what is new in their life and see what they say -- whatever i do, musn't accuse them of anything or push them to reveal things. They will open up when they feel like i aint going to judge them or get angry, not before. If they never spill their feelings, musn't take it personally. They just don't feel like sharing yet... And i received a text message from this dude earlier, asked me to meet him on the station. But the problem is, i dont really like him that much and i don't wanna talk with him, because i know what will be our topic. It's not that i am snob.. But i just dont want him to expect and to think that im an easy type of person. Well, i am really a friendly type of person, but some people will take advantage of my 'goodness' haha is that the right word? well, sounds like correct!.. anyways, this day.. it's totally different. There were things changed. Like my feelings? towards this person. i've been thinking about it lately, because i know this isn't right. SO i better stop this. Aint good to love someone and at the same time hurting somebody. ayt? Music can really help change things. . through it, i was able to meet this dude. it's blitz. we bceame friends beacuse we listen to the same music, and im a dj. .. he loves listening to me on the radio, and telling me how special i am even i am not. he make me feel so good when i hurt so bad. . its started with the 'collide' song. he is the first person who shared me that song without knowing that i have been dying to hear that. . maybe its only a coincidence. well, i cant really say that this is it.. But all i know, is that he also contributed much happiness in my life. . and i dont want him to go away.. and just want him to say he'll stay. But me and him? what's going on? All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong..